The Unknown.

I have been having the hardest time making myself sit down and write on my blog. You know, if you don't talk about it, then maybe it isn't so real? I still suffer from chronic migraines. If you are on Facebook, I am sure you are well aware that it is migraine awareness month. I am sorry if you are getting tired of seeing so many posts about migraines. I am not doing it for attention or to annoy you. I am doing to raise awareness. We are trying to teach the world how debilitating migraines can be, for they affect more than just your head. Migraines affect your whole body and it takes it all out of you. I am fighting so hard to raise awareness, so that Congress will approve for more funding and put migraines in a classification in and of themselves. The more I learn about migraines, the more I learn that very little is known about them. I can tell you that when you suffer from pain nearly every single day of your life, it wipes you completely out.

The past couple of months I have been doing worse instead of better. I have some auto-immune issues going on that they are still trying to figure out. I am seeing an infectious disease doc because I have had a fever for almost two months. I have to have my cane with me at all times. I don't always need it, but it helps to stabilize me, because my right leg goes numb quite frequently, without warning.

I had a biopsy taken from my leg because I have bruises that have been there for over a year. I have to have more biopsies in July. My kidney function is all over the place. I am short of breath with any physical exertion. It is even hard for me to talk on the phone. I am trying to stay strong and be a fighter, but right now I am scared. I had so much thrown at me this past week, that I just don't know what to do. I am scared of it all, the unknown, the known, etc. I am adding so much stress to my family. I can't even take care of myself. I have lost a lot of weight because I can't eat much. I have to force myself to eat.

I will post more later. I just wanted to provide a quick snippet of what is going on.