About Time

The other night, my husband and I watched the movie, "About Time" with Rachael McAdams in it. I thought it was an incredible movie. At first I wasn't quite sure what to think, had a slow start, but turned out to be a phenomenal movie. In the movie, once the men reach a certain age, they are able to go back in time and get a redo, per say. They cannot go back to somewhere they have never been. For example,  he regrets asking a girl out on a date, when the opportunity was right there in front of him. He just had to go into a small dark room, like a closet, bathroom stall, etc. and he can go back to that exact time, but this time he asks her out on a date. The wives and women in the movie do not know that the men have the capacity to do it. As the movie continues, you learn more and more about what they can and cannot do. By the end of the movie, I was sobbing. I was like "wow"! that movie had such a great message.

We all know that we are dying, we start to die the minute we are born, we just don't know when and how. The movie left me thinking deeply about this. Would you want to know if you were dying soon, but didn't know exactly when you were going to die, or would you rather not know? This question leaves me so torn. In a way I would want to know, so I could make sure to make peace with whom I have hurt. I wouldn't waste an opportunity to tell somebody how I felt about them. But, on the other side, I wouldn't want to live each day in fear wondering if today, tomorrow, next week, etc. was the day I was going to die. Does it make it easier or harder on your loved ones knowing you are dying? Or is it just as easy or harder to learn of their unexpected death?

What gets to me, is that once somebody finds out their friend or loved one is dying, they make sure to visit them and be there for them. They make time for them, where as, if this same person were healthy, most people wouldn't give them a second thought until they hear of their passing.

Why must something tragic have to occur in order to check in on our loved ones, make the extra effort to make time for them, etc? Shouldn't we relish each moment we have together? Take advantage to tell the person how you feel about them, regardless of whether they are going to die tomorrow or in 20 years. I don't think I should pass up the opportunity to share how I feel.

I wonder, would it  be good to know when I was going to die so I could prepare my girls, or would this make it harder on them? Would it make it harder on my husband and my extended family?

Ideally, I would like to go to sleep and not wake up, die a peaceful death. I don't want to die a tragic death, but I know that I have no control over that.

I take the opportunity each day to tell my girls and my husband how much I love them. I tell my girls that no matter what happens, I will always be in their heart. I take the time to appreciate the little things. I don't worry so much about having the perfectly clean house. If I have the opportunity to spend some good, quality time with my family, making ever lasting memories or spending the day getting my house perfectly clean, I choose to be with my family. A dirty  house will always be there. When my girls get older, they won't care if the house was always clean or not, but they will care if I was there for them. Family is the most important thing to me. I want to make lots and lots of great memories.

I have a big heart. I love whole heartedly. I hurt easily. I am very sensitive. Sometimes, I think I care too much.

After much pondering, I don't want to know when I am going to die. I want to live each day doing what I love and enjoy. I don't want to ever pass up an opportunity to tell somebody how I feel about them before it is too late. I want to enjoy the little things. I want to be grateful for each new day. I don't want to pass up an opportunity to smile and laugh or find a way to get another person to smile or laugh.

As bad as I sing, I will sing every opportunity I get. I will sing like nobody is listening. I will never, ever pass up the chance to dance. I plan on dancing to my grave. I will dance like nobody is watching. I will cherish each day. I will make the most of each day, as much as I can, with the condition I am in. I don't think that a person should be sick or dying before you make the time to see them. Cherish today. Live for the moment. Love the little things. Never, ever pass up the opportunity to share your true feelings about somebody, as hard as it may be. Love life. Be happy. Smile. Always try to find the positive, no matter how small, in every situation. Don't be scared. Embrace life and make the time to call or visit your friends and family, without reason.

That's my two cents for the day! DANCE! DANCE! DANCE! AND BE HAPPY!

The girls and I being goofy and lip synching! We had so much fun!