awareness is not for me

It has been a while since I have done a post of any kind on my blog. I have nothing exciting to report. This past month has kicked my @$$! I've have a fever for over a month and they have yet to find a cause. I went to an Infectious Disease doctor last week. He is baffled. I go to a new urologist tomorrow, to see if he can shed any light on the voiding issues. I have my cane. I do not need it 100% of my life. I am supposed to have it with me whenever I walk, so I have it for support if needed. I am not complaining. Sometimes, I just don't know what to say. I don't want to be viewed as a complainer if I tell you how I am truthfully doing, but I don't want it to look like my life is all rainbows and butterflies. I am not trying to raise migraine awareness so that people know I suffer from migraines. I am trying to raise awareness because so little is known about migraines. What causes them? Why does one person get them and another person does not? I, along with thousands of other people, are trying to raise awareness, so that more funding can be given to research and studies. I am not doing it for myself. I am doing it to hopefully save others from having to suffer with chronic migraines. I am doing it for future generations. I am doing it, so that one day maybe they can find a cure. The stigma and treatment options for migraines are never going to change, if we don't push for awareness. There wouldn't be all these treatment options for cancer if nobody ever spoke up and said we need to figure this out. We need to find treatment options. Look at AIDS, it used to be terminal if you got that diagnosis, but people kept pushing for awareness, studies, etc. Now there are several treatment options. Awareness has got to start somewhere. Nothing will ever get done if we sit back and wait for somebody else to do that. That is not me. I am a go getter. I am a fighter.  I want to raise awareness for research and studies. I want to change the stigma of migraines. I want to educate the population, that migraine is not a headache. It is a neurological disease. I want to raise awareness so migraineurs get the respect and compassion, they truly deserve. I don't want anybody to ever hurt and suffer like this. Awareness is not for me. It is for my girls. They have both had migraines. I do not want to see them endure the challenges that I have had to endure. I am alive, but I am not living a life.

Nobody knows.